Visual essay about my project:

Visual Essay 2022

In 2017 I received a message on Instagram from a stranger, a woman who says she remembers me from the past. According to her, we had met at a party back in my hometown, Guildford, England and I had helped her feel comfortable about her identity as a lesbian. I had no memory of it, but out of politeness, we began to talk online.

She is a daredevil, known to have stood up on a moving motorbike on the highway, she loves dogs, and nature. She was grateful that I had shown her a truth about herself all those years ago and I was glad to have made a new friend. One day, a year later, she confides in me that she was raped. She tells me all at once, that she was raped by man she used to babysit for, a police man. She tells me that he pushed her against a wall in his house late one night, and said to her “I’m sorry but its just not interesting with my wife anymore” he then forcibly raped her. 

She took a while to go to the police and she felt a deep sense of remorse when doing so, not simply because the rapist was part of the establishment designed in theory, to protect her, but also, because she thought a lot about her rapists young children, whom she knew well. She didn’t want them to discover the terrible truth about their father. “I’m sorry, your dad raped me” she said.  After some time, she took the matter to court, and she won. He is no longer serving in the British police.

She told me she would become a cop herself, and safeguard others. This for me was the moment a light bulb went on. Her response to this violence was to get closer, to think more about the family and loved ones of the man who had assaulted her, and to get closer to the institution that had wronged her.

I began to collect the stories of rapists and survivors wherever I went. I wanted to understand what had happened to my friend, what had happened to all of the women, men and non binary people I have met who have experienced assault, and what ‘ordinary’ perpetrators felt like about their crimes, in the aftermath of the event.

Perpetrator audio headphones (voiced by actors):

Survivor audio headphones (voiced by actors):

I have displayed this work as film, audio and text/visual art so far. The audio is played through ‘silent disco’ style headphones, so many stories can be shared from different people, to different listeners at once.

Open studio visit to Peters GlogauAIR studio from Somos residency 2022

Wireless headphones play audio on two channels, one with the true stories of perpetrators the other with victims, a painting can be viewed from multiple angles, containing statements made by perpetrators and survivors.

Short film from the Aftermath Project at Trinity Buoy Warf London as Part of group show ‘This is Not A Party‘ Feb 2022

Subtitled and translated into German and shown at Glogau Artist in residence program, Kreuzberg Berlin, April 2022.

Aftermath Project Website